Multiple personality

as time goes by i keep getting badder to those near me. sometimes i dont understand myself and part of me say that i have 2 type of personality. 1 of it a nice type and the other, pretty much you can guess it. anyway, sometimes i like being both but theres a consequence that is you cant control it.

if i being a nice person, i see that im vulnerable, weak, easy to manipulate or something that involves wif it. yes being sometime help me to get closer to my family and friends yet something missing inside me. something that what makes me, ME.

though if i being a bad a** person, i fell powerful, respectful, others can take advantage to me and again something that involves wif it. i like to call myself as a control freak or so but being control to some1 makes me understand them and get closer at the same time. then again, something deep within my heart is not yet complete to fully understand what is that i want for me.

the big question is, what is that something that i want. so that i can be happy but at the same time i feel powerful??

Ramadhan is here

atlast ramadhan is here. the month that ive been w8ting for a longggggggg time. the month where we muslim pray moa frequently and control almost earthing bout ourself or something like that.
anywhere back to meh, i want this Ramadan that i can control my anger, lose some weight xD (even though mah friend said that i skinny) seriously a skinny guy that weight over 60kg and plz dont think coz ur tall..

and also i want to be good and follow allah's rule and leave what shouldn't do. i also hope that this Ramadan that no 1 i MEAN NO ONE would ruin this month. trust me i would make his/her life miserable